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I believe I may be invincible…

That there is a glass of water. I have not had a coffee in 7 days and it was days prior to that to find the next instance. I had a goal a couple months back to break coffee’s hold on me. I think I may have done it, which I think might mean I am invincible…

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The battle continues

The last week didn’t go as well as I would have liked. I’m guessing some of you out there can agree, if not today at some point in your life. As I get ready to sleep, I remind myself that I am still breathing and I have survived another day. Despite the millions of ways my life could have ended today, it did not. That simple fact is always a victory. When I am lucky enough to open my eyes in the morning it’s back to the fight. This is life my friends, make it the one you want. Rest now then back to battle.

You gotta make it hurt

Just finished a really really really ugly two mile run. For those of you following my injury status I’m still not fully operational.

Issue is it has been four months since I ran, since I truly worked out and that doesn’t make for a happy me and even worse than that it makes writing really difficult.

But one of my favorite quotes from a movie(bonus points of you guess it) “life is pain and anyone who tells you otherwise is selling something.”

So, sometimes you just have to push through the pain.

Anger

For the select few friends who have known me forever they can attest to the lack of control I had of my anger as a kid. It took me a lot of years to learn how to leash it, conceal it, and ultimately kill it.

I don’t always win. Like banner/hulk Jekyll/Hyde there are moments I become a monster.

Yesterday I was cut off very aggressively and dangerously by a transit van merging onto the road I was on. In my evasive maneuveres I lost my phone into the crevice of my seat. After being sure my vehicle and self were safe I noticed they had a how’s my driving number. I immediately plotted my revenge. I’d use my golden tongue to ruin this person’s day and make sure their boss would chew them out.

One problem. I was wearing my watch. I couldn’t get my hand down to get my phone without the chance of getting stuck in a monkey trap and I didn’t look forward to the idea of driving the next ten minutes with my hand stuck to the floor of my car.

Amused by my own situation I let my equilibrium resume and the logical brain took over. I’ve cut many a folk off on accident while driving large vehicles, as well as making mistakes in a rush. Maybe he was already having a bad enough day. No lives were lost. Breathe easy and let go.

Holding anger is will never help you. Take it easy my folks.

Humpty Dumpty

So of late I haven’t slept great. Had some back pain that limited my rest. For anyone who doesn’t sleep a lot know you get a lot of strange thoughts in that world between sleep and awake. Jotted this down the other night and didn’t remember doing it until I saw the note pad today. 

And all the kings horses and all the kings me couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty back together. Only Humpty had that power as he was the only one who knew what he had to be when he put himself back together. 

Yeah, apparently had some deep nursery rhyming at 3 am.

Choices

See that devil.

Going on three years ago my sister dropped her at my moms. My mom said she could stay a night.

Three years later. Thousands of dollars in costs and literally buying a house so I can keep her I’ve had to live with my choice of adopting this demon.

I’ve had a lot of help a long the way, but the point is we make choices in life. Those choices come with consequences. You’ve gotta be willing to own your actions in life. 

Writing Females

One of my first one star reviews said that I wrote women characters as men’s wet dreams.

It has lingered with me and bothered me a lot. So I’ve been asking females/writers/female writers for advice over the last five years to try to improve.

I don’t know that I have.

Watching Wonderwoman recently was one of the best case studies I had seen for learning how to create a strong secondary character/love interest. What they did with Chris Pines character is great. Now that lesson has to be brought to female secondaries.

Tiny. My warrior queen and Kade’s greatest bane is horribly used through out the first two books. She spends most important moments incapacitated. I created a character with so much potential, but then slight her strength. She can carry just as much story as bumbling Kade and she could do better in most ways.

So, as I sit here evaluating my treatment of my female characters, I am promising that I will do my best to not suck so much in the third book(and all future works)